This is not to do with Kieran but I am often asked to post my sermons and therefore here is last week’s – written not as an essay but something that was spoken..It’s about us hearing and being open to God calling us and based based on 1 Samuel 3:1-10
Opening prayer
Open our ears, O Lord, to hear your word and know your voice.
Speak to our hearts and strengthen our wills, that we may serve you today, now and always, Amen
Have you ever been called by God?
Perhaps some of us find this a difficult question to answer. After all, not many of us have had the kind of dramatic call experiences that we read about in the Bible. When we think of God’s call we perhaps think of a call like Moses experienced— a big booming voice coming out of a burning bush in the middle of the desert. It’s a great story, but how many of us can actually relate to that? If that’s what a call from God looks like, then I suspect our answer to this morning’s question for most of us would be a resounding no. We hear these stories in the Bible about a God who calls people in extravagant and fantastical ways, and we notice the lack of such extravagant events in our own lives, and maybe we are left wondering– is God really still speaking to us? Is God really still speaking to me? And if God is in fact calling me to do something– how on earth will I know?
Unlike Moses’ call from the burning bush, Samuel’s call was much more ordinary, and much less clear. As far as Samuel could tell, it wasn’t God’s voice at all that he heard, but rather the voice of his mentor Eli coming to him from the next room. At the beginning of this story we are told some significant details. We are told in verse 2 that: “The word of the LORD was rare in those days; visions were not common.” This reflects the situation at the end of the book of Judges; a sad commentary about God’s people which finishes with the words “Everyone did as he wanted to”
Yet there is a glimmer of hope here. We are also told in verse 3 that “the lamp of God had not yet gone out, and Samuel was lying down in the temple of the LORD, where the ark of God was.”
In Samuel’s story, we can begin to see how understanding and responding to God’s voice is not usually easy. Three times Samuel hears God’s call, and three times he jumps up from the temple floor, running to Eli in the next room, not recognizing that the voice calling to him was in fact coming from God. Like Samuel, our process of discerning God’s voice amidst all the other voices clamouring for our attention is often a process of trial and error. It may require us to strike out a few times, to risk imperfection or failure, to jump up and head in the wrong direction before working out where we need to go.
Sometimes I think we expect that God’s voice will be the voice that tells us exactly what to do, exactly how to do it, and exactly when to begin. We think that if it’s God’s voice calling us, there will be no room for ambiguity or uncertainty. But if that’s what we think, then we need to think again!
It is easy to miss God’s call, or attribute it to a human instead. In speaking of their call, most people do not describe a major disruption in their lives. Instead they speak of a quiet, slow awakening−perhaps to a life of service or an injustice that needs to be addressed. Like Samuel, they often tell about a period of uncertainty regarding what they are being called to do or be. Also, Samuel needed Eli to explain to him what these stirrings mean. It often takes others in our lives to aid us in understanding the call God places before us.
When reflecting on my own call to be a Reader I certainly didn’t recognise it at first, it took others to tell me! But although I thought I was wholly unsuited, not knowledgeable enough, hadn’t been a Christian long enough, didn’t understand all the Anglican or Churchy ways, etc, etc I agreed to open myself up and follow processes and see. Doors opened- every time I thought I was unworthy, something would happen to confirm that it was God’s choice – but it wasn’t until the very last day of my Reader Training, just before being admitted and licensed that I was overcome with emotion, someone lay their hands on me and told me what they saw was from God and that I accepted that I had been called. It took about 12 months of nudging me, a further 6 months exploring and then being accepted and then a further 3 years of training- so it certainly wasn’t quick.
Understanding our call is often a process of trial and error—of steps and missteps. We can’t expect that our calls will be completely self-explanatory and perfectly laid out for us. Notice that when Samuel first received his call from God, there were no instructions attached. There was no grand plan laid out for him. It was simply a moment of God calling Samuel’s name— trying to get his attention. I think often this is exactly what it looks like when we first receive our call from God. It’s those experiences we have of God getting our attention— snapping us out of our complacency— even if it’s only for one moment– in order to feel something extraordinary. And then it’s up to us to take the next step and respond. To listen for what may be coming next. And to take a few risks along the way.
Samuel could be considered the outsider in the story. Eli’s sons are from the priestly line, and it is their birth-right to serve in the Temple. We hear elsewhere in the book of Samuel that they have not acted justly. They have used their position for personal gain instead of service to the Lord. Throughout the Bible, God does not always choose the expected ones. Jacob, Joseph, Moses, and David were all unlikely choices. Jesus calls fishermen and labourers to serve as disciples instead of the priests and prophets of Jerusalem. Power and position in the church or community do not guarantee a similar place in God’s world. All, even outsiders, are given tasks in God’s kingdom.
So have you ever been called by God? If you’re still not sure about the answer to that question, let me put it to you another way:
Have you ever had an experience of being filled with God’s unfailing presence and love? Perhaps in a time in your life when you really needed it?
Have you ever heard about a problem in our community and been moved to want to help, even if it was just in a small way? Have you ever heard about an injustice somewhere and thought to yourself— “that’s not right, what can I do?”
Have you ever sat in church and felt inspired to live differently? Have you ever thought to yourself: there is more to this life then what the mainstream culture has to offer- with its focus on climbing the ladder of success and materialism? Well God is calling you. He called each of us here to be a Christian for starters! For some that would have been less obvious if you were brought up in the Church perhaps but even so there would have been a point or points where it went from being the faith you grew up in to becoming your personal faith. For some of us who weren’t Christians it may have been a sudden event- it may have been a right mixture and that is more likely- it will have been different for each one of us.
We may be tempted to think sometimes that if we aren’t somehow out there doing extraordinary things that we aren’t really called by God. But if that is what we think then we would do well to remember the words of a very wise woman who once said that “we can do no great things. We can only do small things with great love. It’s not how much you do, it’s how much love you put into it.” That was Mother Teresa.
God’s call is not something we necessarily can make sense of with our head, but a sense of peace fills your very being even when your head thinks it cannot be. Often when discerning God’s call we have to explore things that turn out not to be. We also should be open to the fact that if God’s call occurs in one way at a particular time it could be quite different at another time. Since being a Reader I haven’t felt that God is finished with me- I have explored Christian counselling, volunteering for the Samaritans, workplace ministry, being a Children’s Society speaker to name but a few- knowing that God wanted me to do something. And I was getting impatient listening (How long does God need!? I’ve been a Reader for 8 years this year for goodness sake!). So I was exploring for myself what I thought God might want me to do. None of these things have worked out, due to time or cost – I work full time and have had a growing family. However I have stopped saying to God- “here I am then- come on please show me what you want me to do” to just being still, no longer looking but opened myself to say “okay God- they’ll be no more action with me trying to find out what you want- I’m just going to listen”. I now have a Spiritual companion or Spiritual director, to help me with discerning what God appears to be revealing but I have finally accepted God’s time, not my own. The thing about God’s call too is when we have a bit of time on our hands we think now might be a good idea to launch ourselves into things and think it must be of God- but sometimes it is our own will, wanting to fill the time and convincing ourselves it is from God. From my own experience, it is when I am at my busiest that God’s call comes- when I am not actively searching.
God’s call comes when we least expect it and often to those we least expect. God is always the God of surprises. We, as the church, need to be like Eli, encouraging everyone to hear the voice that calls them forth into all they are created to be. At the same time, we help each other to tell the truth, even when the truth is hard to hear.
The truth is, we don’t really know what will happen when we decide to follow the call. It may just be that extraordinary things do happen when we start to do small things with great love. Or it may be that ordinary things happen– but that they have an extraordinary effect on someone, somewhere. And we may never even know about it. And like Samuel, we may falter a bit at first. We may jump up and say— “Here I am Lord!” Only to be faced with a brick wall or a frustrating road ahead. But that doesn’t mean that we aren’t called. It just means that we have to keep on listening. We must continuously present ourselves before God, and respond just as Samuel himself responded—by saying “speak Lord, for your servants are listening.”
When God calls he hopes for a response, if we don’t respond he will try again. Yes- there is risk for God’s call does not come lightly. For some, there is risk that the newness that God brings will also bring an ending to their way of doing things, an ending of the security of the past. For others there is risk that they will be called to forge into new territory in the power of the Spirit, to announce and help build the newness that God is bringing. God pushes us out of our comfort zone.
So listen, really listen to what God may be saying to you, don’t push it, don’t overthink it but be still and experience the peace of God. Turn off the radio, the TV, the computer- set your phone to voicemail. Read your Bible, say your prayers, give to God any guilt, resentment, failure and shame for these can get in the way of listening, really listening to God. But then- be still -and in the silence, experience God’s presence. Open not your head and mind- although of course they are important too when wrestling with the Bible and world events and what it all means- but open your very being, your soul to God’s presence. Give yourself time- it may only be 10 minutes of stillness a day but make it count and make it the most important thing in your day- and don’t give up- it may take years, or it may not! And finally don’t be afraid- God equips us, gives us the strength and the skills for whatever task he has in mind for us- he would not call us to something he knew we couldn’t do.
In the words of the psalmist, God knitted us together in our mothers’ wombs, he knows us intimately, He made us and knows our every thought and word and deed. He knows us better than ourselves, better than those closest to us. He knows the parts of us that are hidden to others, and hidden even to ourselves. He knows us beyond how any human could hope to understand another or themselves. God wants us to know him and invites us to an ever deepening relationship with him and by opening ourselves up and listening to his call he will reveal to us what we are made for and how best we can serve him, so speak Lord for your servant is listening, Amen